.:Finding Taryn:.: Being: MOM!

I love being a mom. But to be honest, it's really hard work! (and I know as my mom reads this, she's saying: Well...ya! Now you know what I've gone through with you kids). I know, I know! Thanks mom!

Being a mom, isn't just BEING there.

You have to completely interact.

You have to plan everything in advance.

Being a mom, everything takes twice as long.

Going on vacation, isn't always vacation.

Going out to dinner or even the grocery store isn't ever "quick".

A mom's calendar is NEVER "open".

Free time...forget it! (unless you scheduled about 2 months in advance)

We are constantly making appointments.

Going to appointments, and I'm not talking pedicures here....

Getting the call: "you're baby is sick and needs to be picked up".

Now, let's put SINGLE mom in front of all this!

Is it really that different?

A mom, whether single of not....does all the above!

Ain't gonna lie. She does.

But, when that single mommy wants that pedicure,

who's there to watch the baby?

No one.

Going to the grocery store by myself?

Unheard of.

Come home from work and plop on the couch?

Yeah right! "Mama, I hungry".

It's allll me.

After baby goes to bed at night.

SOLO!

Everyone always says, you are never really alone when you have a kid...

Truth is:

I am.

Sometimes it's really nice.

Sometimes I feel like a loser.

Sometimes I enjoy relaxing.

Sometimes I cry.
Sometimes I long for those Sunday evening cuddles on the couch.
Sometimes I shut my eyes and wonder what went wrong.

...Friends...Adult Interaction...Hellooooo...

Sometimes I forget what that's like.

BUT, then I look into those glossy little brown eyes of my baby girl and realize that being a mom is really great too!

I get to do things I haven't done since I was young.
Have fun at Chuck-E-Cheese again.
Watch Disney movies.
Easter egg hunts, trick-or-treating, and fireworks!
Christmas is fun and exciting again, and it really is true:
Giving is better than receiving!
The joy on her face Christmas morning tearing into presents, almost brought me to tears.
Did I mention there is always candy in the house? There is! =)
Go to the zoo or on a picnic.

And the real truth is-I'm happy with her. And if it's just me and her forever...I'm ok with that because we have love for one another that I could never describe. That I could never replace. We don't "work" at being happy...we just are. It takes no convincing... I love being able to take care of her. She makes me feel like I belong, like I was put on Earth to take care of her. She's a mini-me... and I think I can handle that!